It is the year 1624. The kingdom of Haleri is under the rule of King Virarajendra Krishnavarman. Under his just yet iron-fisted rule, the kingdom fared very well and flourished with natural and material wealth. The happiness of the citizens of Haleri spread vibrant colors all around. But for me, the world had just turned grey and gloomy.
My name is Pawan Kumar Navyogi, son of Bhairav Kumar Navyogi. I descend from a family of royal executioners and my father held the position until his death six months ago. Soon after his death, I was made the royal executioner of Haleri at the age of 26, much against my wishes, as I could not express my refusal to the king for the fear of incurring his wrath. I spent every day loathing my profession and praying that I would never find myself in a situation where I have to actually execute a person. I wanted to become a medical healer and save lives, which has been my dream since childhood. I never could hurt anyone, let alone behead a person.
But the godforsaken day came, and soon at that too. It was the day after Amavasya when the woman was brought before the king for trial. Kadambari, which was her name, looked beautiful and elegant like a lotus flower. Her oval face radiated a divine grace, that anyone would wonder how such a celestial being could ever be put on trial in front of the king. Her husband Mahadevarajan, a wealthy influential merchant, accused her of adultery and betrayal, having caught her in a passionate embrace, lost to the world, with another man in his garden the previous night.
Enraged, Mahadevarajan had raised the alarm for his servants to arrest and bind them both, but the man had by then escaped into the dark wilderness behind the palatial house. He was never seen nor caught. Mahadevarajan seethed in anger at Kadambari’s betrayal though he knew, in his heart, that he had made her his second wife much against her wishes, by forcing her father for the debt he owed him. His anger had turned into a blinding madness and he wanted Kadambari to pay for her betrayal, with her life.
Under King Virarajendra’s rule, crimes of murder, banditry, rape and adultery are punishable by death. The king believes that the fear of a strict punishment would prevent people from indulging in serious crimes and the cultural tradition of his kingdom would be preserved. The king had always wanted the justice system of his kingdom to be the pride of his rule and an exemplary example to other kingdoms. He was not a person to be emotionally swayed; in fact, he lacked emotion totally when it came to meting out punishment if the crime was proved. However, he was just and fair enough to provide an opportunity to the accused to defend oneself, before the guilt was proven.
Kadambari stood trembling in front of the king, knowing well what fate awaited her. After Mahadevarajan finished narrating the incidents of the previous night, Virarajendra asked Kadambari if she accepted the crime that was being leveled against her by her husband. He also let her know that the crime, if accepted, was punishable by death. She nodded silently, never uttering a word. The king asked her to name the man with whom she had betrayed her husband. He gave his word that he would spare her life if she named the man, under the consideration that the man had enticed her into the crime of adultery by taking advantage of her loneliness and gullibility.
But, Kadambari never spoke a word. It seemed like she had silenced herself to the whole world. The king looked at her silently for a long time and she too met his gaze, unfaltering. The king lowered his gaze and, with a heavy heart, ordered her to be executed the next morning. Mahadevarajan was happy with his anger being sated by the verdict, but my world came crumbling down.
My first execution, it dawned on me, was going to be that of a beautiful woman that I would have cared for like a flower, only if life had done me that favor. I could not sleep the whole night and spent it thinking about Kadambari and what had transpired in court that morning. My next morning came with a sense of dread and sadness. I could not eat anything as I did not have the stomach for it, and hastened to the gallows in the wee hours. I carried my father’s sword, a shining talwar, which he always used for his executions.
The prison guards had already readied the prisoner and brought her to the gallows. A priest performed karma rites in a systematic yet detached manner, praying to the gods to forgive her sins and accept her soul into the heavens. I rather felt that it was the others that needed forgiving by the gods that day. Kadambari stood silently, her red-rimmed eyes looking down; it looked like she had been crying the entire night. But, her calmness gave away no emotions now. She was brought forth to the execution block. Her hands were tied behind and she was made to kneel down. I stood beside her as she knelt. For a brief moment she looked up at me; her eyes haunt me to this very living moment. Tears welled up in her eyes, as well as in mine. It took all my strength to control my emotions in front of everyone. Just before she bent her head forward in the block, I saw a slight smile form in the corner of her lips; she was done with this world and ready to move on to the next.
The execution was swift. Though my heart weighed heavily and my hands trembled, my sword came down fast. I wanted to ensure that she had a quick death so that she was relieved of all agony soon. After the deed was done, the king went back to his royal duties with the satisfaction of having upheld justice and culture once again; Mahadevarajan went back to his selfish life, looking forward to his hunt for another wife. But here I am, sitting in the darkness of my room the same night, crying myself hoarse, thinking of Kadambari and her eyes when she saw me for the last time.
Kadambari could have easily mentioned my name in the court when questioned, to save herself. But she chose not to. She instead chose to protect my life by sacrificing hers. But, what was my life worth without her? I was just an executioner who killed people at the king’s bidding. In my dull grey life, she had streamed in like a guiding lamp to lead me out of my darkness into the rainbow. I do not even remember when or where I had first met her, but only remember the ecstasy I felt deep inside when our eyes had met. Also, for the first time in my life, I had felt a sense of purpose. Pursuing my objective of getting closer to her with a singular focus, I soon came to know that she was married against her wishes and detested her life until she had met me. Our situation soon made us find ourselves within each other. Our love grew day by day, blossoming into an almost utopian hope of happiness and togetherness. We wanted to live every moment in its entirety, not knowing how many such moments would come in life and how long each would last.
We soon reached a point where our life was meaningless without being together. So we decided to elope away into the night, to some faraway place, never to be found again. We made our plans for the fateful night of the Amavasya; little did we know that it was a different fate that awaited us. After Mahadevarajan caught us on that cursed night, I wanted to stand and face him like a man. But Kadambari forced me to disappear into the night, convincing me that she would manage the situation and we would soon be together somehow. I was a fool to have believed her and run away. Had I known that Mahadevarajan would put her on trial in front of the king, I would have killed him that very night, to save her, and we would have disappeared forever.
Instead, I sit here all alone now, having taken the life of my sweetheart with one swipe of the sword. I would have come forth to accept my crime to the king in the court. But I realized that, even if the king had spared Kadambari’s life, she would still have led a life of ridicule and hate and would have suffered in the hands of a hypocritical society till her last breath. Hence, I remained quiet and decided to end her misery.
As I sit here thinking over the happenings a resolute calmness is coming over me. My hand is gripping the sword tightly even as it is inches towards my abdomen. I have no more use for the body; it is only holding me back from going to my Kadambari in heaven. I feel no remorse, or anger, not even towards Mahadevarajan whom I would have killed for destroying Kadambari’s life and our dreams. But then, I could not risk him troubling us in the next world as well. So I let him be; leaving him to his own fate.
As my life is being drained slowly out of my body, and I am being embraced by a welcoming blackness, I look at the blood stained sword and cannot control my feeling of exaltation at being united with my Kadambari in blood.
As for the king, he can find another executioner for I have resigned now. With each passing gasp, I am leaving the world with the lingering hope that there would be no more beheadings, in the name of culture and tradition, and the sword would be put to rust.